1.
says
wow-factor — and
stunning mixture of
the old and the new
an
ambiguous area
:ownership of the home
<can't do accents>
an unfamiliar voice enquires
how she is
in
white rooms (scrubbed sterile)
blue-gowns
and blood
"it's not right
to say we talk more different
would not have put it like that
wouldntve — put it
like that"
incomers looked at funny
amount lent:
five times annual salary — all bets on in
the
delinquent casino — no
risk — as
bad debt a growth market / wth
aldi home-brand lines
on the table
one! two! three! four! count
contractions — in
unfamiliar
accents
2.
voices contract would not have to
wouldntve been so
keen
last years hook-ups with drunks
forgotten leaving
'the partnership' dissolved — a new one
in place
not often out anymore—an
hopeful
online dater
inviting friends to
get the ball rolling
:personal
approval rating — a
fall in the polls — et cetera
no
wow-factor
stunning mixture of
the old and the old
four walls
a high ceiling
renting the flat — rather
'studio apartment'
two
differing / trajectories
consolations
: family and home
that one
(a fortiori):
knows how to use
a pen
a day passed without writing adults write
small percentage for fun have usually read
a lot of books found time to read so much
the opposite of mysterious years spent
doing nothing leave the room when asked
what they did the weekend just gone
no
mystery about them not 'privy' to any
secrets (despite masonic-seeming handshakes)
just read a lot of books they think
i could do better than that absence of distractions
pen and paper or computer inexpensive
way of passing their time their efforts either
encouraged or ignored preoccupied
with
re-writing what went before
3.
encasing — can't
afford a cold — they'll
all end up ill
off work
sick — means a weekend
over time bar
eats oranges for
advertised
medicinal effects — it's
a starter home
a
good area — joint income
(family looks after child)
to travel links and
entertainments — close proximity
they
make friends
quick
with
no idea how to live reads
thomas chatterton
one room a
high-ceiling
those years (imagined from
a future perspective)
where it all began
finally
writes
4.
writes
as of 1st next month will
will no longer be — residing
5.
in every beginning
the end in every beginning
easily forgotten
that
things end not
remembered the
lesson
neither learnt (though
should have been
in
the midst of
the good times
find it hard to (really hard to
believe in
endings
one hundred and twenty percent
lent — five times
annual salary
repayability a concern
when debt no longer guaranteed
eastern
home — from
sell-on
abbey national safety-net removal
slowing circulation of
invisible
money
and promises of money
and rumours of money
many
false-sightings
of
money
not really ignored
some response
received
not blanket silence
inbox clogged
with
template letters
just changed
the addressee hands not shaken no
slaps on the back though
when
enters a room
encouragement
from knowing some people so much
dependant on luck
can
suggest fraudulence the real price
having been reduced raises the question
of motives
whether to do
work that is good or to have people
know who you
are
6.
*
approval rating a
fall in the polls
vacillating on — whether
to call an
attempts
to overthrow — the
knives
seemed to be out
until
economy gave opportunity
to lose — reputation
of
indecision — next
morning seemed
a war leader
(cigar and black dog expected
soon)
a severe contraction
— projection: two quarters consecutive
negative growth
(and then the rest)
needed to move fast
address book checked — some
calls to be made — knows
some people
BROUGHT IN FROM THE COLD
THIRD TIME LUCKY
NO-BRAINER RESHUFFLE
SHOCK RETURN A 'MASTERSTROKE'
the black dog smokes a cigar as
it carries —
him
back and forth
*
7.
question of engagement
under
any obligation to get ones
hands dirty a testified feeling
of redundancy from who have had
events roll by unable to stop them it's
a statement of intent measure
of
how serious they are the extent to which
they'll engage with the ordinary
(or, as might be true: extraordinary) a
question of conscience good enough
to rebuild sex-partners of the past
from lines broken eccentrically and
odd word juxtapositions with an
intensity almost autistic ambition
a variable requiring consideration
what achievements sought
will
need answering as well capable
of providing
the only reply seemed suddenly
less pressing
name recognition
contraction as painful as
much upheaval caused
end of boom-and-bust cycle
proclaimed — prematurely
though
due to unprecedented nature
the
old paradigm
indeed may not apply
the paradox of meaning
contraction as
harbinger of growth
family
getting bigger yet simultaneously
an enforced reduction
as
things shrink
become meaner — get
tighter
imposing
a northern return
crammed into — in-laws
attic-room — consolation:
people talk the same
elide
the quickest route known
path worn — by them
ages round here
good fortune with job
(so far)
unemployment anyway a
lagging indicator — peak
not predicted until
two years hence — chance
of riding downturn out the
close transport links
pass the house — and
it looks
smaller